ain't it funny.

She was doing so fine. Life might be harsh to her but well,she got her friends with her, their circle ain't so big but those people are enough to her. They are the people that she loved the most,she would kill anyone who's trying to hurt em. They would spend those countless night together doing some random stupid crazy things just to have fun;just to forget how miserable each one of their life has been. They were not doing good in life,but they got each others back so that is okay.

Until she got involved with a different circle. She tasted a new kind of fun with em, and she got addicted. She slowly left her old circle without noticing it, she drifted apart from them. She would spend days, weeks or even months with the new clique because she know they got the things that she wanted ; they got that temporary joy that she long for ; they got the drugs.

But ain't it funny, those guilty pleasure she had only destroyed her friendship. She lost those people that care for her. That what she got for being greedy just to have happiness.

...

She was so in love. With this punk dude that play in a band. Even though they didn't declared their self as a couple, they both know that they got the chemistry even if he play hard to get. He would protect her if she get inside the chaos pit when they go to a gig, they rarely meet but he would come from a far place to pick her up just to spend time with each other, they don't talk a lot but to be around each other even if in silenced ; is enough for them. He told her to wait for him ; "i'm collecting money to married you,I don't want to be that guy who's going to destroyed you". But she was confused if its true or not because he never be serious with these commitment kind of things.

But then she met this guy, he's a hipster trendy dude. Both of their world is different. She into punk rock but he, well let said that he's the kind of people that follow the trend. Everyone were shock that they two be a paired,but what everyone doesn't know is that it was love out of pity; "everyone left me. my girlfriend left me and my friend isn't being true with me and i'm afraid to be alone in this world" he said, and she stay just because she knows how being lonely feel even if you're in a place full of people; "if you're sincere with me then we'll make this work, but if you're not and you want me to go, i'll go" she said. But then he got a job, he got the cash and he left her with the sentence "i'm afraid of your depression" when the truth is he just used her in his hard time, take everything she have and abandon her when it come to her hard time.

But ain't it funny, how fool she have been for love. And now the fault she make can't be reversed, the impatient decision of her greed to have love; make her lose the one that could have been true to her.

...

but you'll learn little girl,

and I know those past mistake

won't stop haunting you down.

but remember that the past can't hurt you,

it will only make you grow wiser.

so for now just

breathe and live

this life of your,

and you shall bloom.